Thursday, April 9, 2009

Guru to the Rescue

I always get these paranoid feelings that the people closest to me don't really care about me and are going to leave me, and I know exactly why I feel like that. One side of my family has completely abandoned me, including my father, when really all I wanted was to love and be loved by them. I'm always on the verge of tears. I know that is where my issues stem from, and whenever I get the feeling I will be abandoned again and fear being without love, I tell myself: You know why you're feeling this way, so just stop it. But I can't, and that's the hardest part--knowing I'm acting crazy, and not being able to stop.

As I'm writing this, "Moment of Truth" by Gang Starr comes through my headphones. Guru says, "Sometimes you gotta dig deep when problems come near. Don't fear, things get severe for everybody everywhere. Why do bad things happen to good people? Seems that life is just a constant war between good and evil. The situation that I'm facing is mad amazing, to think such problems can arise from minor confrontations ... I'm ready to lose my mind but instead I use my mind ... My only crime was that I'm too damn kind."

I need to chill.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Sarah Palin, why so shocked?

Is she serious?

Palin, Palin, Palin. I always knew you weren't the brightest bulb, but this is just a display of sheer ignorance. You're upset that Levi told America that you "probably knew" the couple was having sex? It's either that, or you are so ridiculously numb to what is going on under your own roof. What kind of parent lets their teenage daughter's boyfriend move in with her?

Be realtistic: of course they're having sex! You provided them with a roof, a bed, and enough privacy to let their hormones take charge and run amuck! No wonder she ended up pregnant--you speak for abstinence, and now it's Bristol's turn? How about actually educating young women on how to protect themselves? If Bristol, a very Christian girl, cannot abstain herself, if she had been educated on the various forms of birth control, rather than being told to simply resist every urge she has while her boyfriend sleeps under the same roof, she probably wouldn't be an unwed, teenage mother.

Have the Spears taught us nothing??!

master file DOWN

Well, here I am, in my cube with nothing to do since the master file is down, where all productivity hinges.. I have a notebook I scribble in when I'm bored and not WILBing (an actual acronym, new to me, which stands for Workplace Internet Leisurely Browsing), and thought now would be a good time to put these roughs up here, since I'll lose said notebook soon. Reader beware: there is no order, hardly any sense, to these ramblings.
Oh, and just to cover my ass, I have to say that EBSCO does not endorse my comments in any way. =)

"Pro-life" is a term which must be used loosely when describing most right-wingers. "Anti-choice" would be a more fitting label. How can one who denounces abortion so readily, including in situations of rape and incest, be so quick to send our young generations to death for, let's not lie to ourselves anymore, oil? (Had the amount of money that's been spent on Iraq and Afghanistan been put towards a solution for our insane dependence on oil, maybe this country/world would be in a much better place... but that's a different rant.) How can anti-choicers say "no" to abortion, even when the fetus is a clear threat to the already-living mother? Any argument against this is out of pure ignorance. Then again, why would conservatives support choice in this matter? We need plenty of young, healthy soldiers for our pursuit of world dominance! For those who claim "pro-life" from a religious standpoint, in the grand scheme, it is so hypocritical due to all of the wars, in history and present, fought in the name of spreading and sustaining any given religion. Value life? How does war value life?

Also, speaking from the left, YAY IOWA!!!!
I believe in Freedom. The Freedom to choose, the Freedom to love. The Freedom to make a choice which will directly result in one's happiness. Afterall, this country was founded on the Freedom to engage in "the pursuit of happiness", whatever that may be for the individual.

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a & b are flying, hands held across time,
unsure if they are with it or against it.
gravity escapes them as they are unleashed
from this world, seeking something
they won't know til it's found.

a & b are flying, hands held because if they let go
they will lose all control, limbs will flail about,
one is sure to break. they glimpse at
all unknown territory, soaring towards some
unknown ending which may not even come.

millions or so lightyears later, or before,
a & b have returned, empty-handed
except for each others vice-like grips.
a can feel b's gaze on her profile, and as she
turns to meet it, they find what they've sought:
infinite joy.

**

I don't know if I like this. Maybe I'll try it with prose instead of poetry.